Yay!

L is coming over to meet the fam on Sunday....well, if he can't get on a flight to KC. So everyone, collectively, hope he doesn't get on that flight to KC. Thank you. He said today that he promised not to ask anymore big questions until he was ready for the big sit-down. I thanked him and said I could now avoid that awkward call to my therapist. Said avoidance was my super-power and denial played second chair. Called my therapist anyway. Sure hope she calls me back. I told him that Kulin wanted to know when he was coming over for cocktails by the firepit and he said "tell her when I'm damn good and ready!!!!" and I was in the car with her at the time and showed her and we laughed our asses off. She's put out that he's met Thom and not her. She said, "when is he coming over? I mean, he's met THOM." And she said Thom really liked him and she was glad. I said I KNEW Thom would like him. She said she was glad Thom liked him on a technical level - for Trip. That Thom liked his editorial skills and film knowledge and techno-geek abilities. Peter's going to like him too.

What L doesn't know is that this is like meeting my family. Different, but the same. This is my chosen family. Not that I don't love the shit out of my real family. But these are my peeps. My daily life. He's going to meet my kids. I'm super excited for him to meet my kids. I told him to bring his laptop so we can watch a movie outside on the giant inflatable screen. I asked him if he drank wine or if I should get him some Svedka and he said he would bring something. Told him we were hosting so NO. He said Svedka was fine and then asked about a veggie tray. I said now he was being kind of demanding but okay and he said he meant HE would BRING a veggie tray. I said make it cheese and crackers and Peter will love you forever. He said cheese and crackers it is. Then I told him he didn't have to bring anything at all, he just had to show up and he said he couldn't show up empty handed. He's such a NICE boy. He walks me to my car after everything (even lunch at Qdoba in Highlands Ranch and there is NOTHING safer than that) and waits for me to get inside. He opens all my doors. I've never in my life dated such a gentleman. I fucking LOVE it. Like on a ridiculous level. I feel so feminine.

I told HIM to pick a night to come over and I was SO thinking it would be sometime during the week and I'd have to suffer and wait and wait and wait and wait....and he picked SUNDAY. Now if I can just make Saturday hurry up and go.....

Jesus.

I really, REALLY, love notdating L. I want to keep him forever. Do you think the Universe could actually be nice to me for once and let me have this incredible man? Do you think that maybe, MAYBE, I could keep him? He could be nice to me forever? He could love me even more than he does? Do you think I deserve him?

Does he deserve me?

Kulin asked me today how long I would allow the no-sex thing to continue and I said I'm really happy right now so I don't care how long....well, for a little while anyway. I said I didn't think he doesn't want me. That doesn't go away, right? I'm pretty sure he wants me. He can't stop looking down my shirt. And who has sex with someone and then decides he doesn't want to anymore? I know he wants to. That makes me feel even more special. I know he wants to and he's not and he's with me most of the time. Because he actually LIKES me. And he's not scared of my crazy. He doesn't avoid me. He is fucking amazing.

L. Of all people. L is the one. Awkward, tall, smart, kind, sweet, geeky L. And if he's not, then I really have no fucking CLUE about life.