Frustration and Melancholy

Still no phone....but I'm closer. Kulin and I pretty much devoted the day to figuring this shit out. Well, first we went to the gym. Did 40 minutes again and burned 430 calories. Didn't have the time for weights but I'm alright with that. I actually prefer weight training but as long as I get cardio in I feel okay. We left the gym and came home and called the Apple store. We decided our solution was this: Peter would take Kulin's upgrade and get an i4. Ryan wants an i4 so they struck a deal regarding school work. I would take Ryan's new (only 2 months old) 3GS. So we got Peter's phone. We couldn't get Ryan's i4 from the Apple store because it's actually my upgrade and I'm on a business account and you can only upgrade a business account from an AT&T store. It's stupid but that's how it works. Called over twenty stores and NO ONE had any in stock. So Ryan's phone would have to be ordered. Then we took the two fucked up iPhones to a guy who does repairs for less. He got them working but told us Peter and Kulin had damaged the LED screens during the screen replacement so the phones weren't going to work (you couldn't see the icons on the screen). FUCK.

We head back home where we do end up getting a little work done. Little meeting about our Prove It campaign. I get to follow-up with Radisson Blu in mother fucking DUBAI. I would LOVE to go to Dubai!!!!!!!!! Plus there were some other fun locations in the list. Like Moscow. What!? Peter took the new i4 and his phone and Ryan's phone and went back to work. Kulin sent me to the grocery store with a giant list and her credit card. I'm in produce when Kulin calls and says Aspen Grove has an i4 and I have to leave immediately and come home and get her so we can go get the stupid phone. So I run to customer service, tell them I have an emergency at home, leave my cart, and run to the Aviator to rush home. I get to Lincoln and Quebec (our intersection) and she calls again and says she accidentally called the Apple store and NOT AT&T so there really is no phone. I had to turn around, go back to King Sooper's, face the kid behind the counter, and ask for my cart back. Then I still had to do the shopping. $309 later I was finally done and only missing baby bell peppers and raw, unsalted cashews. But I did add sugar free chocolate, low carb protein bars, and low carb fudge ice cream bars so I can get my chocolate/sweet fix without hating myself for it.

I drove home with the back full of groceries. Kulin was so happy she didn't have to go (she hates doing the grocery shopping so it has become my chore) that she unloaded the groceries and then poured me a glass of wine. I did end up making the salads for dinner....and that's what we had for dinner. Salad. So I made dinner too. Whatever. Then Papa showed up so I made him a salad and poured him a glass of wine. When we finished the first bottle he dangled the Escalade keys in front of me and said he had a very nice bottle of wine in the back and thought he would share. I dutifully went out and retrieved it, uncorked it, and poured more. We all ended up by the fire pit laughing and drinking wine.

When I got back from the (Jesus, Ryan just said herroo...he's been standing in my doorway for five minutes just watching me type.....just threw Tripper's baby at me - he's been doing that all day - and now he's standing over me being, well, Ryan...and now he's on my bed...and now he's farting....ah, 14 year olds) ANYWAY....when I got back from the store Kulin made me put my sim card in her iPhone so I could text with L tonight. The minute she put the card in there was a text from him. It was SUCH a classic Freudian slip kinda moment - I laughed and laughed and made her read it and we laughed and laughed....THIS is what he wrote:

"It appears ATT is on a first come, first serve basis. No more reserve lust."

Next text:

"List."

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA So I replied:

"Lust? Really???"

And we continued to text about my stupid phone. I asked him how his dinner was (he has dinner every Thursday night with a group of friends). Then I invited him here for a cookout on Sunday and he said "I might be in KC or CA on Sunday but if not, I'll keep it in mind." WTF does that mean???? So I fretted about it and finally Kulin AND Papa told me to stop it and just be direct and ask him when I would see him again. So I did. Mostly because Papa said to. And he hasn't responded yet. It's been almost two hours.

Two fucking hours. So he's thinking about it....or he's asleep. I just don't believe there's any way he doesn't want to see me again. Right? He wants to see me again, doesn't he? I didn't fuck it up, did I? I think everything's okay but why isn't he more eager to see me? Everyone from the 12 year old girl to the 70 year old Papa tells me I'm overreacting. So it's gotta be true. I just need to calm down. Right?