I can't quit. I tried. I really, really tried. I just like it. I know it stinks, makes you smell bad, is bad for your health. But there is something so satisfying about smoking a cigarette. I've stopped before - for as long as two years - but I always come back like it's an old friend. No one around me smokes anymore so they all HATE it passionately. I get pressure from all sides to quit but that just makes me want to smoke more.
If you're wondering, I just smoked thinking I had time to sneak one in and then I got busted. Didn't get yelled at but I could feel the condemnation pouring out. Christ, I'm 35 years old. Let me choose what I want to do to my body and keep your mouth shut (and your eyes silent!!!). Now I just want to smoke again.....Jesus.
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